They are lost souls Reaching out for hope Screaming, crying, slowly dying But no one ever knows Round and round they spin A battle deep within Feeling like they cannot win Load the chamber Watch it spin then lock it in Glide their finger to the trigger And pray to God for the answer It’sContinue reading “Russian Roulette”
Author Archives: Kimberly Cruz-Lopez
Don’t Wash Your Dishes
If you know me then you know that even if the rest of the house is a mess, my kitchen and my bathroom have to be clean before I go to bed. BUT I didn’t wash my dishes last night. Before I continue I think that’s important to note that I have OCD – obsessiveContinue reading “Don’t Wash Your Dishes”
Bittersweet
Back in December, I celebrated the launch of my first book, Unveiling Ellie. I shared the magnitude of that celebration previously. Seeing my book on display, hearing the laughter and chatter, looking around the room seeing unknown faces scattered between the faces of loved ones. It was wondrous. Little did I know, it was justContinue reading “Bittersweet”
Intentional
Originally, I had intended to share this on New Year’s Eve yet here we are eleven days into January and it was just sitting here, unfinished. Does this happen to anyone else? Our minds are everywhere all at once, ALL. THE. TIME. We constantly find ourselves feeble, worn out, weary and ready to throw inContinue reading “Intentional”
Wondrous
Francis Scott Fitzgerald once wrote, “A new world…breathing dreams like air…” I certainly felt like I was breathing my dreams like air this past weekend. And it was wondrous. About three years ago I wrote a blog about a woman named Ellie who was tormented by nightmares of her childhood sexual abuse. I ended thisContinue reading “Wondrous”
Shedding Trees
“The wind grows cold and with each blow, the leaves fall fast yet somehow still slow. Creating colorful pavements beneath the trees and with a new breeze, they start to flee. Swirling, searching, settling somewhere new but we cannot see this journey, we’re distracted by their hues.” I jotted this down in my journal justContinue reading “Shedding Trees”
Little Late Night Reminder
How many times have I sat down at my laptop to write only to stare at my screen making a mental checklist of all the things that need to get done in and for the house, wondering what activities I could be doing with my BabEs or how I could help my husband? But noneContinue reading “Little Late Night Reminder”
Monday Morning
Today, like most mornings, I sat at my dining table with my cup of coffee and Five-Minute Journal. As I struggled to scribble my thoughts onto the page I could see my oldest son across the table writing away. He too was scribbling his thoughts into his Five-Minute Journal. But he was writing with certaintyContinue reading “Monday Morning”
The Sound of Silence
I thought about killing myself yesterday I thought about leaving it all behind I thought about walking away I thought about how much better the world would be How much better it would be without me I thought about grabbing a knife I thought about slitting my wrist I thought about pulling the trigger MaybeContinue reading “The Sound of Silence”
Deuces
You know that thing called family Yeah that word doesn’t mean much to me And I’ll tell you why They love my kids differently I’m not a lion but hear me roar Because there’s nothing that frustrates me more Than seeing favoritism right in my face To see the ones that I birthed less embracedContinue reading “Deuces”